It was humbling to realize that I was no different than someone I've "hated" for quite sometime. I can admit that it makes me no more of a woman (of a person) to criticize another person for acting/behaving in a hurtful, selfish manner. I am no different. I am not perfect. Who the fuck am I to judge anyone? I chose to put myself in an environment that was not conducive to my well-being and then acted accordingly. I chose to put myself in a position where I was surrounded by individuals who are not the way I want to be and became one of them. So, I need to take responsibility for my own bad behavior. I have been disrespectful and selfish and immature. But, I know that's not me. I need to get back to who I am. First thing is admitting that we're all shitty in our own way and it doesn't make me any better to point out others' mistakes. Also, MY biggest mistake is choosing fear every single time. I make decisions out of fear NOT LOVE. Bad things happen when you say YES to everything, when you're passive about what you actually want out of fear of losing (nothing!). Love is the only way: self-love comes first. I am woman enough to admit that I am no better than anyone else.
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